I think the reality of the situation just hit. I work in a very republican environment, right now a very cheerful environment for them. We have been joking, and they have been teasing. And I have taken it like a pro, only threatening life once or twice. All in jest, but this is no joking matter. Civil rights are effectivly gone, as is our bill of rights. Devestated isn't strong enough for what I am feeling. I am engaged, and we want, and are planning on having children, but I am not sure I want children to grow up in this environment. In this country. I have always been very patriotic, not today, today I mourn for our country instead of celebrating it.