I think tarot can be fun but do not believe in them per say. There is a lot of basic psychology used in reading and interperting them. They use avenues and themes that are relevant to all of us at some point in your life.

I think all writers want to be able to live off of there writing but realistically not many do. Nor is it the money that compells most writers to keep writing. Well maybe the dream of wealth and fame.....

Writing can be extremely challenging when you work and have a family. I don't know you very well at all but I admire you're persistance to work on your writing, don't be so hard on yourself.