i want to comment on this, but i am not sure what to say. i think i just want you to know that it really, really touched me, and it made me think hard, and it made me want kids [which i do anyway, but some things make it rush over me more strongly - this was one], and there were those bits that made me say 'yes, exactly - wait, i'm not the only one?'... just lots of things, i guess. plus that i really appreciate and admire the way you put yourself out there. i am amazed that you can be so vulnerable and open when there are however-many-hundred people reading this. it's gutsy, and i'm impressed.