Yeah, writing

[pegkerr]

kijjohnson wrote a good entry about writing, and how to arrange your life to do it. And . . . and . . .

I know all this stuff.

I just have to decide what to do about it. And then do it.

Argh.

Do I want to be a writer or not? Why am I hesitating to make the commitment to invest the butt-on-the-chair time and do the fricking work?

My muse needs a leash and a choke chain. She keeps wandering off and reading instead of writing. Only problem is, she'd probably be so pissed at me if I tried it that she'd never cough up another page.

Not that she's giving me much right now.

V. crabby and tense, thinking about this. But I think I'm on the cusp of a renewed commitment to writing. Even if all I produce is dreck. Minicon's coming up. Maybe that has something to do with it.

Comments

[snippy]

Why am I hesitating to make the commitment to invest the butt-on-the-chair time and do the fricking work?

What's your fear fantasy? That will tell you what's getting in your way.

[aome.livejournal.com]

Do I want to be a writer or not? Why am I hesitating to make the commitment to invest the butt-on-the-chair time and do the fricking work?

Probably because it's scary. It's scary to put out so much of yourself, and to wonder if you have it in you; to make a commitment to embark on a project and see it to the end; you probably remembered what this entailed for your previous novels - sometimes knowing what's coming makes it harder. I also recall you've worried about having to live up to EHR and WS.

I have much MUCH smaller writing projects facing me (I signed up for two fic challenges), but I have still been paralysed by fear. I haven't even *tried* to write - I let everything else take precedence.