This card is sort of a meta-card captures a feeling I have felt welling up in me about Soulcollaging itself. I have been feeling so desperate for so long because the fiction writing stopped, and as readers of this journal know, this was acutely painful for me. When I found I could Soulcollage, one of my primary first reactions was profound relief, that I hadn't totally lost my creativity. I don't know why it was so important to me, but it was. As I started putting cards together, I realized I was using the same process I'd used when writing short stories, and the realization was very exciting, and tinged with awe. See? Here is art. Here is beauty. I tried to capture that feeling in making this card, to acknowledge that there is still that part of me that sees and recognizes beauty and wonder. I was so tremendously relieved to discover that it wasn't gone forever, as I had feared.
I made a very deliberate decision to use only girls. I had a number of pictures of little boys doing creative things, and some of them were very good, but for some reason this card seemed to need to be a female card, not just a card about the creative child. Perhaps because I associate femininity with creativity--I still feel that being a mother (i.e., creating a baby inside myself) is one of the most remarkable creative things I've ever done. And I am, of course, the mother of daughters only. Perhaps that is related, too.