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52 Card Project 2021: Week 28: Imbalance
Jul. 16th, 2021 06:07 pmThe very first soul collage card I ever created was the balance card:
Balance
I am the graceful one who balances poised in the air, sometimes teetering, but never falling. I am the one who perfectly centers opposing forces while still moving forward.
This week, on the other hand, I have been thinking about the opposite: imbalance.
I think it started with all the hard work I did during Box Week, three weeks ago. I got a lot done, but I physically and emotionally exhausted myself. I decided to take it easy the next week.
But . . . I've definitely noticed that I have started a kind of a spiral. This sometimes happens when I get depressed, but it took me a while to figure out what was going on. I didn't notice the pattern at first because . . . I wasn't depressed. I'm truly not, honest. But I have been sleeping absolutely terribly, and then I started not eating as well. Things got worse to the point that I also stopped doing physical exercise.
And I have dived into an utterly fierce all-consuming fanfiction reading jag. (Jane Austen fanfiction again). I have had other obsessive jags in the past, but this one is becoming rather all-consuming. This is something the girls and I have all experienced at times (and Rob did, too, so the girls definitely got it from both sides of the family). It's interesting having the realization that I need to pull myself out of a tail spin, but not quite having the wherewithal to do it--yet.
Creating this card was actually great fun, and I'm delighted with how it turned out as well as smug about how I figured out the technical aspects of moving from my envisionment to the final result. I was able to (finally!) get a full body shot thanks to a visit from my long-time friend Laurel Winter. She stood at the bottom of my front steps and took from below a burst of thirty pictures as I acted out losing my balance. Then I took a picture from the beginning, another from the middle, and one from the end, removed the backgrounds, and assembled the digital card using transparent effects. The balance pole I'm holding is my karate bo.
Ironically, after I explained my vision of the card and Laurie took the photos of me, she did a Celtic Cross tarot reading for me. The card that showed up in the "Root" position was...the second of Pentacles, the balance card. Wow.
Imbalance caused by the grip of obsession isn't entirely bad. I wrote a small fanfiction story, the first writing I've done in a long, long time, and I have started another I'm even more pleased with that I hope to post soon. Edited to add: Here's the second story, which I have finished, too.
Imbalance
Click here to read about the 52 card project and see the year's gallery.
Balance
I am the graceful one who balances poised in the air, sometimes teetering, but never falling. I am the one who perfectly centers opposing forces while still moving forward.
This week, on the other hand, I have been thinking about the opposite: imbalance.
I think it started with all the hard work I did during Box Week, three weeks ago. I got a lot done, but I physically and emotionally exhausted myself. I decided to take it easy the next week.
But . . . I've definitely noticed that I have started a kind of a spiral. This sometimes happens when I get depressed, but it took me a while to figure out what was going on. I didn't notice the pattern at first because . . . I wasn't depressed. I'm truly not, honest. But I have been sleeping absolutely terribly, and then I started not eating as well. Things got worse to the point that I also stopped doing physical exercise.
And I have dived into an utterly fierce all-consuming fanfiction reading jag. (Jane Austen fanfiction again). I have had other obsessive jags in the past, but this one is becoming rather all-consuming. This is something the girls and I have all experienced at times (and Rob did, too, so the girls definitely got it from both sides of the family). It's interesting having the realization that I need to pull myself out of a tail spin, but not quite having the wherewithal to do it--yet.
Creating this card was actually great fun, and I'm delighted with how it turned out as well as smug about how I figured out the technical aspects of moving from my envisionment to the final result. I was able to (finally!) get a full body shot thanks to a visit from my long-time friend Laurel Winter. She stood at the bottom of my front steps and took from below a burst of thirty pictures as I acted out losing my balance. Then I took a picture from the beginning, another from the middle, and one from the end, removed the backgrounds, and assembled the digital card using transparent effects. The balance pole I'm holding is my karate bo.
Ironically, after I explained my vision of the card and Laurie took the photos of me, she did a Celtic Cross tarot reading for me. The card that showed up in the "Root" position was...the second of Pentacles, the balance card. Wow.
Imbalance caused by the grip of obsession isn't entirely bad. I wrote a small fanfiction story, the first writing I've done in a long, long time, and I have started another I'm even more pleased with that I hope to post soon. Edited to add: Here's the second story, which I have finished, too.
Click here to read about the 52 card project and see the year's gallery.