Why do I have the feeling that Elise made the necklace? :-}
It's funny you should be writing about this just now; for Jews, the 10 days (Days of Awe) between Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur are meant to be used to look over your life honestly and evaluate how you are living it. I call it spiritual housecleaning.
It takes enormous courage to be honest about the things you fear and the ways in which you are unhappy, and enormous talent to do so in language clear and vibrant. You have the courage and the talent. And your ice palace is a powerful symbol for you and your process as well as for Solveig (I think someone else has already pointed that out).
I wish I could predict anyone's future with any assurance! If I could, this is what I'd say: I think that this book will come for you eventually, if you can keep your practice alive. That's a rather Zen way to look at writing, but I think focusing on process might be more productive than focusing on results. Even if all you do is doodle or cross off sentences, even if it has nothing to do with your book, if you keep *writing*, your story will start telling itself to you again. You're too vivid a writer for it *not* too.
Jo's right -- you can stop and start again. And let me add myself to the voices saying "I believe in you." I do. That doesn't mean you have to tackle everything now, or do it in a particular way. I believe in you anyway -- if you don't write for several years and return when you're ready, that's okay.
Let me also add my voice to those suggesting that you get evaluated about depression. You've written about some enormously stressful things going on in your life, and if you already have a tendency toward depression, stress can make it less manageable.
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Date: 2003-10-02 10:11 am (UTC)It's funny you should be writing about this just now; for Jews, the 10 days (Days of Awe) between Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur are meant to be used to look over your life honestly and evaluate how you are living it. I call it spiritual housecleaning.
It takes enormous courage to be honest about the things you fear and the ways in which you are unhappy, and enormous talent to do so in language clear and vibrant. You have the courage and the talent. And your ice palace is a powerful symbol for you and your process as well as for Solveig (I think someone else has already pointed that out).
I wish I could predict anyone's future with any assurance! If I could, this is what I'd say: I think that this book will come for you eventually, if you can keep your practice alive. That's a rather Zen way to look at writing, but I think focusing on process might be more productive than focusing on results. Even if all you do is doodle or cross off sentences, even if it has nothing to do with your book, if you keep *writing*, your story will start telling itself to you again. You're too vivid a writer for it *not* too.
Jo's right -- you can stop and start again. And let me add myself to the voices saying "I believe in you." I do. That doesn't mean you have to tackle everything now, or do it in a particular way. I believe in you anyway -- if you don't write for several years and return when you're ready, that's okay.
Let me also add my voice to those suggesting that you get evaluated about depression. You've written about some enormously stressful things going on in your life, and if you already have a tendency toward depression, stress can make it less manageable.
Thank you for writing as you did.