Low ebb

[pegkerr]

This was an extremely low energy weekend.

I went to one of the dojos and took belt test pictures on Saturday, and I ran a couple of errands on Sunday (got gas and a couple groceries) but otherwise stuck close to home. The girls went to karate on Saturday, but otherwise stayed in. We cut church on Sunday, too, which we very rarely do. We all felt really low. Rob has a dreadful cold, and he's been just miserable and as a result, not motivated to do anything but lay around and sleep. So aside from the drainer's worth of dishes I did, the kitchen stayed a mess all weekend, which, of course, made me cranky. The refrigerator's bare of nutritious food, but we're too broke to go out for dinner or buy more. Fiona stayed in her bathrobe much of the weekend. Delia fretted over her History Day presentation all weekend long but otherwise had immense difficulty settling down and doing her homework. Requests for chores to be done were met with indifference and, if further pressed, with snarls. The house is really a mess.

Delia did try to help, by setting the coffee table for tea with my grandmother's tea dishes. The two of us had that when I got back from my errands on Sunday. That was one bright spot.

But otherwise, it just all felt really bad. Low energy. We're all obviously fighting viruses, and I think we were all extremely depressed this weekend. Dinner last night was a dismal affair, a frozen pizza that nobody wanted (I couldn't bring myself to cook in that dismal kitchen, and there was little to cook anyway.) We ate it in silence, morose and cranky.

I haven't done anything on the Decrease Worldsuck project the last three days. Frankly, worldsuck (or perhaps personal lifesuck) has been almost too much for me. I'm trying to tell myself not to be too hard on myself for this. I feel bad about enough things in my life that I certainly don't need to add to my own personal stress in that manner.

I don't know what we need to turn things around. Well, I do. Health. A lot more energy. Spring.

And a goddamned job for Rob.

Comments

[livsmama.livejournal.com]

At this point in the bleak late-winter, if we all survive I think that is enough decreasing world suck.

My kitchen was still full of dirty dishes this morning and my husband is ill as well. You are, at least, not alone.

[flourish.livejournal.com]

Ditto.

[pinguthegreek.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you journaled this. Better out here than spinning in your mind.

Might you find it easier to go and talk to someone individually at your church ? I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers ( I'm not a churchgoer but I do pray ).

[pegkerr.livejournal.com]

Prayers are gratefully accepted. Thank you.

[pegkerr.livejournal.com]

(Thoughts, too!)

[blpurdom.livejournal.com]

Is Rob signed with a temp agency, so he can get short-term work at the very least? A lot of temp agencies have tech people on tap these days, and when the economy improves and those companies want permanent employees again they'll want to go with people they know and trust from their temp assignments. That way there will be fewer embarrassing gaps on his resume, too. (Although he's in good company these days so a lot of potential employers may not bat an eye at employment gaps.)

[pegkerr.livejournal.com]

Not even the temporary agencies are getting him anything. Believe me, he's tried.

[blpurdom.livejournal.com]

Well, crap. That really sucks. (Not that you don't know that.)

:hug:

[huladavid.livejournal.com]

I seemed to have been walking through the weekend in a sleep deprived zombie funk. Gotta spend more time with the light box and/or outside staring up into the sky.

And no I'm not waiting for the mothership.

[petal-pusher.livejournal.com]

As a fellow depression sufferer [both my father and sister committed suicide], I find that having a clean, organized, uncluttered home does wonders for how I feel. And of course, when it's messy and in need of cleaning it just seems to add to my depression. Maybe some friends could help you clean and declutter the place? It does wonders for mental health, at least it does for me and worth every bit of effort.

[naomikritzer]

What Peg really needs are house elves, IMO.

But if I knew how to get her one, I'd have already gotten one for myself...

[aome.livejournal.com]

My house is a cluttered mess, too, but I feel so uninspired to put out the effort of doing something (and bullying others into doing something) because I know it will look exactly the same as before within two days. Not much motivation, even though the mess is driving me nuts. I don't demand spotless, but I'd like not to have to clear a space for my plate when I sit down for dinner. Or, even better, have counter space to MAKE dinner. :P

I think it's just ... February. Blech for the whole northern hemisphere right now. *hugs*

[lilisonna.livejournal.com]

February really is the worst month. At least it's short.

[shandra.livejournal.com]

Sometimes we decrease worldsuck by not killing those around us. :)

[eal.livejournal.com]

((((hugs))))