2025 52 Card Project: Week 4: Baby
Jan. 31st, 2025 12:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pegkerrI've been doing these collages for several years, and somehow I've focused on the same subject during this week each year. January 26 is the anniversary of Rob's death in 2018.
This year, I really wanted to do a different subject. I mean, the grief is still there (and will always be there) but I can talk about other things, I promise.
And this week, I definitely have something different to speak of, something that makes me very happy! And yet, oddly enough, it has prodded my grief a bit, so I will end up speaking about Rob after all.
Alona and Fiona have given me permission to share some news publicly that I have been sitting on for several months: They are expecting a baby, who will be born in June. (Alona is the person who is carrying the baby.) They have done genetic testing, and the baby is just fine and entirely healthy. (Alona, alas, has been having a difficult time with nausea and other unpleasant symptoms, and we would appreciate it if that settled down. Thank you.)
I am delighted with this news. But of course, there is that underlying twinge of sadness for Rob, again, that he will never see or hold his grandchildren. He would have loved the experience, just as I will.
That's the thing about grief and widowhood: the losses keep playing out, even years later.
This collage includes a picture of him holding Fiona on the day that she was born. Here is another one:
Image description: An ultrasound of a fetus. Lower left corner: a man (Rob) looks down with an expression of wonder at a bundled baby in his lap. Lower right: a hand cups a pair of infant feet
Baby
Click on the links to see the 2025, 2024, 2023, 2022 and 2021 52 Card Project galleries.
This year, I really wanted to do a different subject. I mean, the grief is still there (and will always be there) but I can talk about other things, I promise.
And this week, I definitely have something different to speak of, something that makes me very happy! And yet, oddly enough, it has prodded my grief a bit, so I will end up speaking about Rob after all.
Alona and Fiona have given me permission to share some news publicly that I have been sitting on for several months: They are expecting a baby, who will be born in June. (Alona is the person who is carrying the baby.) They have done genetic testing, and the baby is just fine and entirely healthy. (Alona, alas, has been having a difficult time with nausea and other unpleasant symptoms, and we would appreciate it if that settled down. Thank you.)
I am delighted with this news. But of course, there is that underlying twinge of sadness for Rob, again, that he will never see or hold his grandchildren. He would have loved the experience, just as I will.
That's the thing about grief and widowhood: the losses keep playing out, even years later.
This collage includes a picture of him holding Fiona on the day that she was born. Here is another one:
Image description: An ultrasound of a fetus. Lower left corner: a man (Rob) looks down with an expression of wonder at a bundled baby in his lap. Lower right: a hand cups a pair of infant feet
Click on the links to see the 2025, 2024, 2023, 2022 and 2021 52 Card Project galleries.
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Date: 2025-01-31 08:43 pm (UTC)I think you get to talk about Rob. He's part of you. And while I know he is achingly absent, in some way he lives on in all our memories. I like hearing yours. That picture is so lovely.
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