Reading with Harry Potter Tarot

Since yesterday was my birthday, it seemed like an auspicious occasion to try a tarot reading. I've been thinking about Harry Potter a lot lately, since I've been so involved in Alternity, so I decided to use my Harry Potter deck. I became curious to know whether there were any Harry Potter spreads, went Googling, and found this one, which I liked a LOT, the Quidditch Spread:

"...I realize that the format of the Quidditch players would make a good spread. It has Goals, Helpers, Blocker, and of course the Golden Snitch oops I mean reward.

QUIDDITCH:

-------1a-------
------------2a--
3------1b-------
------------2b--
-------1c------4

1-Chasers: Points/Goals
2-Beaters: Bludgers/Helpers
3-Keeper: Blocker/Stops you
4-Seeker: Reward/Outcome

While making this I then realized that a Quidditch "Match" would be appropriate. To give you a better insight to a problem involving two people. 5 through 8 mirroring the first four cards.

-------1a------8------5a-----
------------2a-----6a--------
3------1b-------------5b----7
------------2b-----6b--------
-------1c------4------5c-----"

For my question, I thought about a painful situation which had arisen the past week: I made a dreadful mistake in a personal relationship which led to a permanent breach. Essentially, I chose words without sufficiently considering how the message might be taken, and in doing so, I really hurt several people who have been very kind to our family. I was absolutely mortified and ashamed about this (I'm a WRITER, I should know how to use words for the effect I want, not to wound through sheer carelessness), but the other parties were so furious that I was told, 'Never approach or speak to us again.'

So I've been fretting and grieving over this. Unable to stop thinking about it, really. And after almost a week of being almost unable to sleep or eat, I have been considering my tendency to do what psychologists call 'ruminating' or turning things over and over and OVER in my mind, past the point of helpfulness. I've come to recognize that I need to stop this behavior; it simply adds to my stress enormously without doing much that is helpful.

So my question posed was: Given this painful situation, how do I quit ruminating about it and move on, taking what I need to know to become a better person instead of tormenting myself about it?

The designer of the spread called the Chaser cards "Points or goals." When I did the spread, they seemed to be more "Points about the present situation."

( I laid out the cards and started the reading )

This was, actually, looking at the card meanings, one of the bleakest readings I have ever done. But then it has seemed like a very bleak week, and the reading felt spot on and definitely gave me some valuable--if painful--things to think about. And it gave me one particularly important insight, about the issue that prompted the reading in the first place.

My rumination is like Umbridge's blood quill punishment.

The thing to do is not to keep carving admonitions into myself.

The thing to do is to PUT THE QUILL DOWN. Accept the lesson, as painful as it is, learn what you can from it, and move on.

Another thought: I WAS reading the reversals. It might be interesting to look at the reading again ignoring the reversals: in that case, for example, the Star card becomes a card of hope again; a helper rather than a bludger.

I dunno. It's painful, but I think I learned more by taking the reversals into consideration.

Edited to add: After doing this post, I logged into my Carrot App (see my post about it here). Carrot is ticked with me because I have failed to check off anything for an entire day. When I finally checked off one item, Carrot tartly informed me, 'No one will ever love you again.'