Choices

[pegkerr]

Elinor Dashwood is not doing very well tonight.

I am struggling quite painfully with an exceedingly difficult decision. The problem is, if I do what I increasingly want to do, what I feel I must do if I am not going to go mad, I know that there are going to be many, many people who are going to be quite angry and disappointed with me. Including, I am afraid, some of you. I will be letting them--letting you--down.

I hate letting people down.

This is probably all that Elinor Dashwood can say on the subject for the time being.

I feel that I'm not doing an adequate job at just about anything in my life right now.

Comments

[laurel]

Take care of yourself, do what you need to do for you. The rest of the world will either understand or perhaps they aren't worth worrying about. Also: if you don't take care of yourself, down the road you may end up hurting yourself and/or having to disappoint more people.

At least in the past when I've worried too much about letting other people down, I've ended up not-at-my-best and then usually ended up letting more people down in the long run than I think I would've if I'd just not worried so much in the first place (and given myself priority).

Not knowing the situation, my advice might not be just right, but I imagine it's probably sound for a lot of situations. You know best.