Seeing my daughters in bikinis
Apr. 23rd, 2011 11:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pegkerrWe're here at Minicon. The girls have been staying at the hotel with some friends. I watched them cavorting in the hotel pool this afternoon and reflected ruefully on an incident in the dealer's room this afternoon, when I asked to try on a leather corset. I ended up feeling unhappy over the way I looked (the corset didn't fit over my hips because of some extra weight I'm carrying around my waist.
Because of some extremely stressful circumstances this winter, I've been eating for comfort and I've missed a number of karate classes. My figure, statistically, is thinner than the average fifty year old American woman of my height, but still, I'm not happy right now with how I look--particularly when I look at my gorgeous teenage daughters. I know, I know. That way lies madness, and really, how many fifty year old women can throw a round kick to the head? Still. I want to be more than "above average." Tonight, I'd like to be able to turn heads in a leather corset, too. It's bugging me.
(Also bugging me: I can't afford to buy the flipping thing anyway.)
Because of some extremely stressful circumstances this winter, I've been eating for comfort and I've missed a number of karate classes. My figure, statistically, is thinner than the average fifty year old American woman of my height, but still, I'm not happy right now with how I look--particularly when I look at my gorgeous teenage daughters. I know, I know. That way lies madness, and really, how many fifty year old women can throw a round kick to the head? Still. I want to be more than "above average." Tonight, I'd like to be able to turn heads in a leather corset, too. It's bugging me.
(Also bugging me: I can't afford to buy the flipping thing anyway.)