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Reading the newspaper over breakfast is just awful. S&P is the lowest it's been since April 1997. Minnesota gained . . . 107 jobs last month. In the entire state. And lost thousands. One bright spot: federal unemployment benefits are getting extended again. That's a big sigh of relief for my family.

Then there's the wrangling over the photo finish of the Minnesota Senatorial race. Both candidates are acting like asses. "I read this stuff," I grumbled to Rob, "and I just want to say 'A pox on both your houses.'" I glanced at Fiona. "Quick, what's that from?"

"It's Mercutio's line from Romeo and Juliet," she said immediately, "Except it's a plague on both your houses."

I beamed at her. "Very good. See? Education is good for something."
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Rob told me last night that his case worker at the DIsplaced Worker Center told him that there's federal money available for us, too, which will give us another 13 weeks of breathing room. I'm very relieved; the state money runs out for us in another four weeks or so. I thought the federal money hadn't passed Congress so I'm confused as to where this money is coming from but hey, I'll take it. This will take us through February, and then we have about three months of saving left after that.

Surely he will have found something by then.

Next week he's going to start a two-week course through the Displaced Workers center on jobhunting (mornings only) which he REALLY needs, because I think he's rather clueless about this whole jobhunting thing and could really use the help.
pegkerr: (All we have to decide is what to do with)
What with the 100 pushup challenge, I've been thinking about the goals I have in my life, and the progress I'm making toward them. I'm a Myers-Briggs ENFJ, and the "J" means that I'm into goals, schedules, structures (unlike my husband, who in contrast is a "P" go-with-the-flow sort of guy. A frequent source of, shall we say, not seeing eye-to-eye on things in our marriage).

I like setting goals for myself. I respond well to them, for the most part. Sometimes, however, I get frustrated with myself because I am not making the progress I would like. Sometimes that is due to the goal I have in mind isn't very realistic; sometimes I sabotage myself--mildly. Sometimes real life gets in the way (i.e., Rob's job loss has been a set back in a number of different areas).

Money Goals )

Fitness Goals )

Other goals )

What are some of your goals?
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I went to work today, but I was really quite distracted. I'm certainly better than I was Tuesday, but I struggled throughout the afternoon with coughing jags, and I continually popped cough drops and sucked down cup after cup of tea. I kept calling home to check on how Delia was doing (better, thank you, although she's still coping with neck and shoulder pain), and to talk with Rob about logistics and insurance matters. I called my parents and sisters, and I called Kij. At a certain particularly low point this afternoon, I sat at my desk and cried into my hands, hoping that no one would walk by and ask me what was going on. Fortunately, no one did.

When work was over, I rode my bike home, and came upstairs and checked my email. There, I found a message from [livejournal.com profile] madlori that ABSOLUTELY BLEW ME AWAY.

*stunned disbelief*

Friends list, how can I possibly thank you enough for your kindness and generosity? Since I learned of the drive that [livejournal.com profile] madlori organized to raise money for me and my family, I've been struggling with how to precisely articulate how unbelievably touched and overwhelmed I feel. Me, a writer, at an absolute loss for words! But I realized eventually that I could never hope to find words perfect enough to possibly be worthy of the gift you have given us. But you know, that's okay, because it's a gift beyond anything I deserve, no matter what I've done, no matter how well you think I write, and how much you love reading the stories I've crafted about my life and my family. When life strikes you as hard as our family's misfortunes have been hitting me, the only way to get through it is by grace. I have always valued you, you know that, and I've often told you that I consider you my posse, watching out for my back. Tonight, I sit here with tears in my eyes and humbly say that you are more than that. You are grace to me, both secular and divine, however you understand it. In this, the most terrible year I've had for a long time, I am so grateful to have found in you a grace to help give me the courage I so desperately need to get me through these trials. I will remember it and hang on to it, no matter what is still to come.

The girls thank you, Rob thanks you, and I thank you, from the bottom of all our hearts.

Blessings and kisses,

Love,
Peg
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Thanks to a lead from [livejournal.com profile] stinaleigh, Rob has a phone interview with Office Max tomorrow.

Wah

Aug. 4th, 2008 07:17 pm
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Rob did not get the Thompson West job.

Phooey.
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OMG, he passed the first cut. He has an in-person interview tomorrow at 9:00 a.m.

Rob?? What time does our plane leave??? For Pete's sake, get the home phone line back up and call me. It's down again.
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Rob has a phone interview with Thompson West for a reference attorney position today at 1:00 p.m.
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So far, I'm holding up pretty well, mentally. Rob is getting two weeks of severance, and we got the very good news that Rob will have about sixteen weeks of unemployment, which is much better than I feared. It's pretty equivalent to what he got last time. Then, we have savings to keep us going a few months beyond that.

I'm recognizing some patterns of thought, as I contemplate facing unemployment again. How I experience my life is greatly affected about how I think about it, so I'm paying careful attention to my thought processes right now. I recognize some thoughts that are downright irrational, if perhaps understandable. Magical thinking, as it were.

1. We've been through this already. It's not fair that we have to do it again. He had a job! All the struggle was supposed to be over!

Answer: Life is not fair. Get used to it.

2. We've been through this before, and we got through it okay last time. He'll get a job in time this time, too.

Answer: Alas, no. It doesn't work that way. The economy is probably worse than it was when he was looking last autumn, and it may very well be much more difficult to find a job this time. There is no guarantee that he will find anything in time before real financial disaster sets in.

3. All will be well if I simply keep a Positive Mental Attitude..

Answer: This I recognize. I have long had a tendency toward depression, and yet I was raised in a family which valued positivity above all else. Being pessimistic was considered a character flaw, almost a spiritual failing. Everything is better when people keep a Positive Mental Attitude. Prayers are more likely to be answered by God. All goes smoothly. Life is more likely to turn out the way that you want.

There is, perhaps, one grain of truth in this: jobhunters who keep hitting the streets, who keep applying for jobs, do better than jobhunters who give up and retreat into apathy. All very true: except that I am not the jobhunter in this case. It will no doubt be less hard on Rob if I can keep my anxieties in check. But just because I manage to keep a cheery mental attitude, this actually has very little magical effect on whether or not a putative employer will offer him a job.

4. If he applies for a job that's just perfect for him, he'll get it just because we need it so badly. Worse than anyone else.

Answer: I actually went through this last time. Rob applied for a position with West Publishing (legal publishers). He would have been perfect for that position. His resume was ideal. And we needed him to get that job so badly. When they didn't even give him an interview, it was so hard. But just because you need a job and are perfect for it, that doesn't mean that you get it. See #1 above. Other people might need the job even worse, you little narcissist. That doesn't mean that they're more likely to get it either.

5. [Conversely] Wanting something so desperately jinxes it. The more you want a job, the less you're likely you are to get it

Answer: Nope. There is no effect. The universe doesn't give a damn what you want, Peg.

What I know from going through this last time is that my security needs are much, much higher than Rob's. He is willing to tolerate uncertainty much more easily than me. I simply can't stand it. But Rob has his own mental quirks, and he hates job hunting worse than poison. I discovered the last time around that the more I pressure him to relieve my anxieties, frankly, the less responsive he will be. The harder I push him to find a job, the less time and effort he will put into looking, as if to prove that he won't be hounded into anything. He responds to my anxiety by shutting down--sleeping more and more, doing less around the house, and certainly doing less job hunting. And that makes me absolutely crazy. This means the more frightening our situation becomes, the more hysterical I get and conversely, the less he will do. Neither approach is helpful. Which leads me to the next bit of magical thinking:

6. The more you want him to get a job, the less you should say about it. Pushing him will only jinx everything.

Answer: Perversely true.

I will try to react to our present situation by telling him that he must hit the ground running, acting aggressively to find openings and apply for them, and I will do my best to be supportive without pushing too hard. This, I know, will be difficult, and it will become extremely challenging if months have gone by and he hasn't gotten any interviews and we're getting close to running out of money.

Thank you

Jun. 26th, 2008 09:06 am
pegkerr: (cherry tree in the storm)
Thank you for all the messages of support.

I've been playing my Holy Tree playlist (from the Tree Project) and that's been an immense comfort, too.

I love you guys. I really do. My friends list is awesome.
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Rob just called. He has lost his job at Ultimate Electronics.

His boss had tears in his eyes when he told Rob the news. It's nobody's fault. It's just the economy. People aren't stopping at the store and buying big screen TVs. He has to start the job hunt all over again.

More to come later, but for now I'm just in shock. Rob's boss said they'd approve unemployment, but we don't know how long the benefit will last since he wasn't at work there for very long, just six months. We do have some savings.

I know the drill, and we'll start taking all the steps we took to contract the budget last time around. Thank heavens we had not yet cancelled the unemployment insurance benefit on two of the credit cards.

But you know what absolutely kills me? We just put braces on Fiona's teeth. The first payment is due July 1. We wouldn't have gone ahead if we'd known this was going to happen.

I want someone to take me out drinking soon. Hey, another martini night, anyone?
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Rob starts his new job at Ultimate Electronics in Burnsville on January 2.
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I desperately hope I don't jinx things by saying this . . .

Rob met with the district manager for two and a half hours today. In typical lawyerly hedging Minnesota understatement, he says, "I don't think I talked myself out of the job." By the end of the interview, he told the interviewer that he liked what he heard and yes, he wanted the job. He also told them both that I supported him taking it. And in return, apparently the district manager liked what he heard, too, because he told Rob's old boss that he had the go-ahead to hire Rob if he wants to. And because Andy called Rob in the first place, we hope this means that Rob has a new job. We are simply waiting for the formal offer, which (I hope I hope I hope) will come in the next few days. Right before Christmas. The fact that Andy promised to email Rob information about benefits also seems a very promising sign.

If/when that formal offer comes in, I will scream for joy and thank you all for your support during these last difficult months. But until then, I must simply keep on with my everyday life as best as I can with all my fingers and toes crossed and hope for the best.

Any prayers and good wishes you care to offer up until then are, of course, very welcome.
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Rob's old boss called him this past week. He has landed as a manager at an Ultimate Electronics store in Burnsville, and wanted to sound Rob out to see if he'd be interested in working there. Andy said that Rob is the only person he has contacted about the opening, that he wants Rob. So Rob went in and talked to him.

My objections to Rob going back to working retail were twofold: the pay sucked and the hours sucked. Apparently, with this job, one of those objections evaporates: the pay doesn't suck. Not at all. In fact, Rob's former boss said that he considers Rob to be a better salesman than any of the people he has on staff now, and one of them is going to earn six figures this year.

Yes, the hours would still suck. But the store opens at 10 a.m. instead of 9:00 a.m. as CompUSA did, and since Rob is a night owl and has difficulty getting out of bed in the morning, this is great news. With the later start time he would be able to make pancakes for the girls on Saturday mornings, which was one of our rituals that I bitterly resented CompUSA taking from us. Another advantage: the floor is set with stock at night by the warehouse staff instead of the sales people, which means that Rob can leave as soon as the store closes at night, instead of having to hang around an hour afterwards.

Now that the girls are in the most senior karate classes, their class hours are later at night, which would make it easier for him to do some of the karate runs, at least on the days that he works day shift. Still, it would mean he would be working some nights and many weekend days. And yet . . .

It's a job. It's the first real bonafide job opportunity he has had since losing his last one six months ago. It's coming just as the unemployment is running out. Nothing seems to be happening on the legal front at all, and the way Rob hunts for jobs I'm not sure that anything WILL happen on that front. Rob knows and likes the boss he would be working under. Rob is a good salesman and likes sales. I think that this may be the answer to the prayers I've been praying for the last six months--at least some of them. It's not perfect. But I can't stand this uncertainty for much longer. I can live with non-perfection and be grateful.

Rob would have to meet with the district manager, who is coming into town next week. I've told him that it's okay with me if he goes ahead and applies. Rob thinks that it would be unlikely that if he applies for the job he wouldn't get it, unless the interview with the district manager goes drastically wrong for some reason.

Keep your fingers crossed.
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Thanks for all the encouragement and practical suggestions, everyone. I really appreciate having my LJ friends looking out for me and my family. (And really, haven't you enjoyed taking advantage of the opportunity when I am genuinely ASKING for advice?)

I've gotten a lot of comments and e-mails, so if I don't reply right away, please be patient with me. We are absorbing a lot of information as we learn about the resources available to us and start making our plans for how to meet this challenge.
pegkerr: (Deep roots are not reached by the frost)
This will probably hit the papers tomorrow: Rob, along with everyone else working with CompUSA here in the Twin Cities, is losing his job. They are closing 128 of 229 stores nationwide. The employees are being retained to liquidate the stock, and so he will be working full time for eight more weeks. Then he will have four weeks of severance pay and then it will be the unemployment line if he hasn't lined something up before then.

People, we will need your help.

Rob needs to find a job pronto. He is a licensed attorney, and he is very knowledgeable about computers and computer networks, including Apple. He is excellent at customer service. I hope that we can find some job which combines these skills which does not involve him working retail, however (please God, not another Thanksgiving Day sale, ever again).

I have called pastor and some of my family. I have called [livejournal.com profile] kijjohnson. Other ways our friends can help . . . um, let me get back to you on that. (In particular, I think I will need someone to take me out drinking Friday night.)

We have told the girls. They were as stunned as us, and there were some tears, but we did our best to be reassuring. I will talk with sensei in the next couple days about suspending their karate lessons, which absolutely breaks my heart, but we will need every penny we can squeeze out of the budget right now, just in case the job hunt takes a while. We will, of course, begin instituting other cost-saving measures, too.

Right now, I am sorta kinda okay because I'm in such shock that it hasn't entirely sunk in. I have been pushing Rob very hard to look for another job anyway because in so many ways his working for CompUSA hurt our family, but he hates job hunting like poison and so was reluctant to get started. Now he has no choice.

I am trying to tell myself this is a blessing in disguise.

I am relying on you, my dear friends list, to help me keep believing that.



Edited to add: Here is the post I've made on [livejournal.com profile] poor_skills about some of the things we are doing to prepare for the layoff. Does anyone else have any other practical suggestions to make?

Locals: you will note that one idea I've come up with is that I think I might want to plan and plant a much larger than usual victory garden, lots of vegetables to help the food budget. Would anyone be interested in helping me plan it, prepare a shopping list? Maybe we can make it a sort of all day party?

Also: (*scratching around for other ideas to save money*) does anyone local have a breadmaker they are not using? Just temporarily, and only if you're not using it.

Thank you!

Apr. 24th, 2003 09:49 pm
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Thank you all so much for taking the time to send Fiona descriptions of all your various jobs. We received dozens of replies, from a wonderful range of people. Some jobs I'd never heard of before! We really appreciate your kindness in taking a few minutes from your busy days (and some of you are REALLY busy) to give us a window into your lives. This project was successful beyond our wildest dreams, and so much fun! I plan to send a copy of the replies to Fiona's teacher, with the suggestion that she might like to share them with other children in her classroom.

Cheers,
Peg
pegkerr: (Not all those who wander are lost)
Tomorrow, as part of Take Our Daughters and Sons to Work, Fiona is going to be visiting Rob's store and spending the day with him, learning about his job. The last two years, she has spent this day with me at my office, learning about my job.

I'd like her to give her the chance to learn about a lot of jobs. Specifically, your job.

Won't you tell Fiona about your job, so she can get an idea of the vast possibilities in the World of Work out there?

If you can, please leave Fiona a comment by tomorrow night, telling her about your career. Something like:

What your job title is, and what that means

A description of a typical day

What you need in the way of training/education/experience to do this job

Why you like it and (if you dare)

Why you dislike it

What sorts of things can go wrong at your job?

What kind of person thrives in your job

Anything else you can think of that would give her an idea of what it might be like to choose your career?

I'd like her to get as many replies as possible. Thanks ever so much!

Cheers,
Peg (and Fiona)

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